What A Week...

You know... my week has just been... yeah... and.... yeah... hmmm... so... in conclusion...  Pour some sugar on me?  Yeah, I got nothing.  I'm out. 

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Before There Were Sugar Gliders...

...my favorite animal was the Sloth.  Here is just one example of why...

So, my job has been stressing me out to no end.  Mainly because of one guy.  This guy is a silver spoon kind of guy.  Everyone is beneath him and most tasks are beneath him.  About a week ago we had a minor confrontation that left me just.. shaking.. but it was resolved in my favor and we moved on.  My boss left for Vienna and of course Mr. Silver Spoon decided to test me again and make another issue.  This time, to his face, I said flat out no.  You can't do this, it isn't right. I have the backing of so many people you have NO idea.  It pissed him off and he left my office.  I sent him an email once again explaining my position.  His response was that's fine I am going to take it up with the VP.  Fine. FINE.  You want to go and question his decision to his face.. by all means do that.. but be prepared to make your own boss quite upset and probably embarrass the hell out of yourself.  That was Monday... It is now Thursday and he is once again testing me and what I will do for him.  He doesn't get it through his head that what he is asking me to do is a task specifically given to him by the VP.  My boss backs me.  My counterparts back me.  But I HATE confrontation.  I am one of those... go with the flow (for the most part..) kind of girls... If I have a firm opinion on something it's usually something I care deeply about.  This issue... shouldn't be an issue.  It's not that I don't want to do what he is asking me... It's that I can't do it.  The VP specifically said I am not do something.  The terminology is so advanced that if I get something wrong - it's a big deal.  Anyway, I don't like confrontation.  It makes me shake and want to throw up.  I get along with everyone... but yet this guy is making my job so much harder than it has to be.  Ass. 

*Breathe...*

Can I Crawl Back In My Shell Now?

URGENT

That has been my whole day.  I feel like this kitten... Tomorrow will be better right? Right.  Oh god.  Now I am typing to myself.... Not good Brittany.. Not good... OH GOD.. now I am talking to myself in the third person.. Wow.. Help me... ><

Crap Day Made Better By Cuteness

Crap Day Made Better By Cuteness

California Sucks.

Glad you agree.

My weekend was relatively uneventful.  I found out I passed my exam with flying colors.  A w e s o m e.  Good news in regards to my mom's husband.  The diagnosis was not what we thought it was going to be and he should be just fine.  Today is going to be quiet as most of the staff is in Vienna and I am still wishing it was the weekend.  Here is something make you go... awwww....

And lastly, I am not sure why I like this song... Maybe for the possibility of turning things around?  I don't know.

Sitting In A Meeting...

...bored out of my mind.  I am listening to people debate febrile neutropenia and granulocytopenia.  I LOVE MY JOB!!!

Anyway, it's Friday... it's payday... I have at least two days filled with nothing involving work... and I don't have to study this weekend.

Interesting news... Al Wilson being shopped by the Broncos...

A reminder of a constant reminder...

Extreme Cuteness - This reminds me of Chris... I think he would make this massive effort to get to the cookies...

Another song that I doubt most will like... But still good... Alright I am out for the weekend!

Reign Over Me

I'm intrigued...

HA... Gotta Love It...

Oh... to live in California...

It's A Golden Day

"I never thought that I would be... slap in the lap of luxury... 'Cause I'd have said... It couldn't be done!" 

WHY... do I have that song stuck in my head?  This mystery remains unsolved.

Anyway... MINI BEAR THREAT DOWN... I don't have anything else today... So you guys get cuteness.

And Now I Wait...

I think I did fairly well on my exam.  Now I am just trying to get caught up in the various meetings and things at work.  I wasn't exactly ignoring them... I just 'put them aside' for a bit........

Yesterday I got off work a little early to do some things and then I stopped at my mom's house.  I laid down on the couch and started to watch one of the only shows worth watching on Mtv.  True Life is a documentary series that started in 1998.  I love documentaries so this was right up my alley.  There have been the memorable.. True Life: I'm on Adderall... the random.. True Life: I'm a Muay Thai Fighter... and the just plain nasty.. True Life: I'm a Jersey Shore Girl.  Last night I watched True Life: I'm In Debt.  It's funny because I ended up feeling a lot better about myself... I thought had debt... but apparently I don't know what 'debt' is.  My measely 1k is nothing compared to 20k, 50k and even 172k in debt.

Anyway,  I think tonight will be just a quiet night home.  One of the first nights in awhile where I don't have to be worrying about school.  Ahhh the relief!  (Until I get my exam back...)  

Gorgeous Morning

It's dark and cloudy this morning.  So wonderful.  Such a great way for me to start my day.  This weekend was relatively uneventful but not too bad.  I studied extremely hard and I actually feel confident going into the exam tomorrow.  I was studying these little guys...

Today should be fairly quiet.  My big meetings are tomorrow so I have to prepare for those... But other than that.. no big news to report.  Here are some things to keep you entertained for all of 5 minutes...

And I thought my hair took forever to straighten... Check out this "style"...

Hmm.. how to punish this guy... castration?  Stick him in a jail cell with a horny guy named Big Jim?  How about both?  Musher decides it's good to beat a tired dog. 

I thought it was funny at least... Carol Burnett sues Family Guy.

Amid my studying... I took a little "me" time and watched a few movies.  Love Actually was one of them.  Have a good one!  Back tomorrow. 

Zzzzz...

I don't think I have been this tired in a very long time.  My trip around the zoo and then I only got 3 hours of sleep.  This weekend is going to mainly studying.  I am going to study my little ass off until I can recite the diets and habitats of multiple primates in my sleep.  Go me. 

My New Toys

I have been looking for a rubber duckie keychain forever!  As an added bonus.. this one quacks and lights up!  = Awesome.  Oh yeah.. and I got an iPod Shuffle too.  Anyway, I must go shower and prepare for my ZOO DAY!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY.  Back in a bit~

ROFL

Brittsicle

Newbury Park, CA

Sunny

On March 13, 2007
Local Time 11:01am

Current Temperature: 77°F or 25°C
Low Temperature:  52°F or 11°C
Humidity 22%
Pressure 1018.3 mb
Wind Direction SE
Wind Speed 11.3 km/h

Yes... I am officially a Brittsicle and yet... It's almost 80 here!  I am literally curled up in my office chair trying to keep warm.  I am one step away from lighting a ream of paper on fire for warmth.  What the hell...  Anyway, not as bad of a day as normal... Because of the big meetings, my normal early morning meeting was canceled.  I still have class tonight but it should be fine.  Other than that... ZOO TRIP!  Thursday.  Yay. 

Girls Enjoy Being Treated Like Crap

Gospel On Giving Up

I return to work.. tired.. blonde(r).. and already wanting the week to be over.  Big meeting in a couple hours.  Slightly scared.  Wish I could stop sneezing!

This weekend's weather was very 'soft'.  By soft I mean... it was warm but not too warm.. with a slight refreshing breeze.  It was extremely quiet where I live.  I was out on Saturday night... walking around in track pants and flip flops... I was lonely but I shouldn't have any reason to be.  Before I fall deeper into my words I am going to go.  Back tomorrow better and brighter. 

Tap Your Toes

I am bound and determined to have a good weekend.  I am going to be extremely nervous all next week but what can you do?  Today I am leaving early and going to get my hair highlighted.  Here is some bouncy music to the weekend started...  Back on Monday!

Windmill

Things can't get any worse right?  So they must get better.  I am going to take the high road.. the better path.. I am going to look for the light at the end of the tunnel.. and the grass that's greener on the other side... Rome wasn't built in a day you know.. and I really shouldn't count my chickens before they hatch.  But I must remember there's no smoke without fire and barking dogs seldom bite.  I certainly have the will which means there is a way... but that's easier said than done.  I don't give myself credit where credit is due... and I don't practice what I preach.  First things first though... I will look on the brighter side and there is no use crying over spilt milk. 

Plus... you know what they say..?   Dead men tell no tales.

Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand
Take it all in on your stride
It is sinking, falling down
Love forever love is free
Let's turn forever you and me
Windmill, windmill for the land
Is everybody in?

About To Break

As I am discovering the new depths of what I am able to handle... I can't help but feel that I am just about ready to crack.  Something has to give... something has to slip and fall (oh wait I already did that)...... We are now waiting for my mom's husband's test results to come back.  They think that the cancer he had at age 19 is back.  The weekend was just so bad... and this week is shaping up to not be so good.  I am so unbelievably busy at work.  I have to actual schedule my lunches but yet even then I don't take them. 

I feel like something is missing.  Something is not being done... I have missed doing something I should have... Something is due or needed... and I'm past the deadline.  I have been through it all.. bills, school stuff, work (as best I could), tax things... I can't... seem to put my finger on it.  Is it because I am just so busy that I feel this way?  I'm not sure.  More than likely I have just neglected someone and they are probably stabbing a voodoo doll of my likeness. 

As much as I wish I could sit here for another few minutes and debate it by typing... I have to go straighten my hair and head to work.  More John Mayer funny facial expressions. 

How True

The Road Less Traveled

This has not been a good weekend.  To top off the events of Friday... my mom's husband was taken by ambulance to the hospital for bleeding in his stomach.  Not a huge emergency... he is pretty much fine.  I did a lot of running around on Saturday when I shouldn't have been driving.  I went in the evening to go pick up his son from work and take him to the hospital.  As I came around to the top of the hill that takes me out of my neighborhood, I had to pull over.  The moon was just simply amazing.  Being high up I saw the full moon crystal clear.  It had this yellow tinge to it and was partially covered by transparent, wispy clouds.  It was so amazing that it looked unreal.  Similar to something you would see in a movie or painting.  It was early evening so the night sky was this deep navy blue... absolutely gorgeous... Very calming for some reason. 

I drove a lot last night.  Back and forth from the hospital... taking his son places, etc.  So of course this means I had tons of time to think.  My mind was all over the place.  I thought about the time in Florida when it would rain buckets and come down so hard it scared me.  Then all of a sudden, as if someone had turned off the tap, it would stop.  The little frogs would come up from the pond and into the hallway next to the apartment door.  It would get very humid (not really conducive for long hair...) and it would go back to being hot again.  I thought about when I left Florida and headed north into Georgia very early in the morning.  The highway led you over many swamp-like lakes across Georgia... I got to see a lot of the states I would probably never visit.  My mind wandered back even further and thought about the time in high school when I bought my 1966 Ford Mustang.  Here is a picture of my awesome car that I sold and regret doing almost everyday...

Just like listening to that one song... why would I want to put myself through memories that were so bad at times?  I sink down into the thoughts of the past that aren't so great.  Kody once asked if I was in love with my sadness... My response was to tell him that if I was so in love with my sadness... I would stay and live with him.  Two days later I left.  I am not in love with my sadness but merely... I embrace it.  It reminds me how grateful I should be of my current existence.  Yes, I am not doing so hot right now... but they could be so much worse.  Much worse.  I don't have a point really... other than last night's sky was amazing and I wish I could have stopped to take pictures of it.  At least for a few minutes I was able to pull over and enjoy it.  When I came back from Florida and got my job at Amgen, my mom's husband said to me... "Well now you should be able to start living again and actually enjoying life."  How true...

Bundle O' Nerves

There was a project manager that worked under a Vice President here.  She got her job cut down to being under an Executive Director so she is my level.  For some reason, she has decided that she is going to pass off the highest level meeting in my group to the new girl.  Oh, yeah.. THAT NEW GIRL IS ME! *Instant Headache*  Please... my nerves are just shot.  You can't go higher than this meeting... If you do you're inviting the CEO.  I am seriously ready to pass out.  Gotta go get a strong drink.