Dead From Cuteness

It's small but still... awwwwwwwwwwwwwww....

Lumenis and Coherent-AMT

The location of the head office of Lumenis, which is the parent company of Coherent-AMT where I am currently doing my co-op work term is located in Santa Clara, California.

And... I'm Back!

I have been away from posting the past few days because of the holiday weekend... plus I broke my tail... etc etc.  Annnnnyway... yeah on Monday I ventured out to try out my new rollerblades... about 30 minutes in I hit a rock and couldn't catch my balance.  I think I even got some air... fell extremely hard on my tailbone and knocked the wind out of me.  My tailbone a.k.a my butt extremely hurts... my left wrist/elbow/arm ache and I'm having trouble sitting and, as of today, standing.  Fun times! 

Work is busy... gearing up for summer travel and possibly filing on a new drug.  I can't believe there is only one day left for the month of May and then it's the start of the summer (in my mind).  Just crazy! 

Beware of the Pirate Puppy... YAARRR!!

Universal Studios

The first time that I mentioned going to Universal Studios during the September trip was the first time "Universal Studios" was displayed at the end of an episode for "The Office".

Baby Names

Possible names for our babies...

Girls: Emma Sophia
Samantha Ann

Boys: William Jacob
Evan Thomas

Fight For Me

I think tonight I discovered one of my flaws.  I have many of course.  But this one I don't think of it so much as a flaw.  Probably to a guy it would seem to be something horrible.  I want a guy to fight for me.  I want him to want to make me happy.  I put other people before me because that's just how I am.  It would be nice if I am put first instead of feeling like the bad guy.  I want to be able to be myself... all that I am... and not have it turned against me.  And if I do is something so horrible that I am hurting the other person... I want to know that they will bring it up... discuss it with me... and then let me sincerely apologize.  After I apologize... I need them to just help us move on... instead of it being a one sided thing.

Is the way I am acting wrong?  Honestly, I could just have a totally different perspective.  I don't want to be one of those people that everyone tolerates and then when they leave people think "Oh, thank god she's gone."  I don't think I am one of those types but still.  I joke around and feed off of other people.  If I read someone wrong.. yeah I will probably end up looking like a jackass.  I am the traveling comedian though... so I guess it's a hazard in my line of work.  I just... I want the amount of love I give... to be returned back to me.  I want the other person to let things go the way I let some things go.... I want them to first pick the battles they want to fight and let the rest go.  Nothing is perfect.  I am not perfect.  I am most certain of that.  But I can't keep up with disappointing someone so much.  You have people tell you... you're great, you're great, you're great... and then in one night oh... yeah... you've been horrible for awhile.  I don't understand.  I could just be low with my awareness level.  But I need someone who will fight for me... who won't just turn away, assuming it's easier not to bring me in to the truth.  They can't just sit back and let me go crazy in my own mind. 

When I am in a relationship I do everything that is in my power to make the other person happy.  I set aside my emotions to attempt to make them happy.  I don't know if this is a good thing... or if it's a good thing to expect from another person..  All I know is... I am in love... and it hurts so much.  Once again... I am floating and drowning at the same time.  Save me.

3 Day Weekend WOOOO!

I am soooooooo... looking forward to this weekend.  I think I just need a break from work.  I am worn out and need to 'recharge my batteries'.  I hate that saying. 

HOCKEY FIGHT!!!

Hahaha... I dislike greatly hate the right wing terrorist that is Elisabeth Hasselback.  Alicia Silverstone is my new favorite person.  Look how she completely snubs the D-List celebrity that unfortunately has procreated and will soon spawn an army of George W. Bush lovers and Pro-Life activists.  People like her she be neutered.  Yes, I took my nasty pill this morning. *angel smile*

Yah-hee, icky thump

Who'd-a thunk?

Sittin' drunk

On a wagon to Mexico

Lol... I love Brian...

And lastly... I give you... The Interrupter... Most won't find this funny.. but I do. =D Have a good one!  Back on Tuesday...

Wedding Vows

Our tentative wedding vows. =D
Opening Words: We have come together today to witness the joining in marriage of Ian Matheson and Brittany Hensley. As family and friends we wish to send them on their way with our love and best wishes for their future. Marriage is more than a contract. It is a commitment to a journey, to a life of becoming, in which joy can comprehend despair, running through rivers of pain into joy again. And thus marriage is even deeper than commitment. It is a promise, a solemn promise that says:
I love you.I trust you completely.I will be here for you when you are hurting, and when I am hurting. I will not leave.
This is no promise to provide haven from pain, or from anger and sorrow. Life offers no such haven. Instead, marriage is intended to provide a sanctuary safe enough to risk loving, to risk living and sharing from the center of oneself. This is worth everything.
Statement of Intent/Consent: With that said,Ian, do you take Brittany to be your wedded wife? Do you promise to love her, respect her, and care for her during times of joy and hardship? Do you commit yourself to share your feelings of happiness and sadness? And forsaking all others, do you pledge to remain faithful to her?
Ian: I do.
Brittany, do you take Ian to be your wedded husband? Do you promise to love him, respect him, and care for him during times of joy and hardship? Do you commit yourself to share your feelings of happiness and sadness? And forsaking all others, do you pledge to remain faithful to him?
Brittany: I do.
Exchange of Vows: You may now face each other, and Ian, repeat after me…
Ian: I, Ian Matheson, take you Brittany Hensley, to be my wife; to love and to cherish, in sickness and in health, for richer, for poorer, through good times and bad, for as long as we both shall live. and Brittany, repeat after me… Brittany: I, Brittany Hensley, take you Ian Matheson, to be my husband; to love and to cherish, in sickness and in health, for richer, for poorer, through good times and bad, for as long as we both shall live.
Ring Passage and Exchange: And now, the rings please,
The wedding ring is the outward and visible sign of an inward and spiritual bond which unites two loyal hearts in endless love.
Ian, please place the ring on Brittany's finger and repeat after me,
Ian: I give this ring as a token of my love and affection/ and as a reminder of the love we share/ with all that I am/ and all that I have. I am so in love with you.
Now, Brittany, please place the ring on Ian's finger and repeat after me,
Brittany: I give this ring as a token of my love and affection/ and as a reminder of the love we share/ with all that I am/ and all that I have. I am so in love with you.
Blessing: Now you will feel no rain, for each of you will be shelter to the other.Now you will feel no cold, for each of you will be warmth to the other.Now you will feel no loneliness, for each of you will be a companion to the other.Now you are two bodies, but there is only one life before you.Go now to your dwelling place, to enter the days of your life together.And may your days be good, and long upon the earth.
Before this gathering Ian and Brittany have declared their love and devotion to each other, promised to uphold these vows, and by the joining of hands and the giving of rings, I now pronounce you husband and wife. Congratulations, you may kiss your bride.
It is my privilege to present to you Mr. & Mrs. Matheson

Positive Peter

Today has been alright in my book.  I've had this day long headache.  The back of my head is throbbing *sad face*.  Even with painkillers it's still hurting.  Tomorrow is Friday.  And you know what Friday is?  It's the beginning of a 3 day weekend! YAY! I am going to do... hmm... yeah... I'll get back to you on that one.  Tomorrow will be a better day. 

Wednesday Words

Yeah, I got nothing.  Shut up and enjoy the cute squirrel. 

Invitations

Before it slips from my memory again... My idea for the wedding invitation is the date.... Example: January 23, 2010 a few different ways in the background.. maybe a light gray color... Then in the foreground "I'm so in love with you..." On the inside should be the details of the invitation. =)

Happy Anniversary!

Today is our 4th month anniversary. Usually people don't recognize the 4 month mark... but it's been a wonderful 4 months.

"I'm so in love with you."

Blue Nile

The engagement ring that I have picked out is from Blue Nile. The coincidence is the company is based in Seattle - where our trip is taking place in October.

Soft And Fluffy

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...

OMG - John Mayer Is Actually Funny!

OMG - John Mayer Is Actually Funny!

What We Know So Far...

This is the list of existing coincidences:

• We both want to have a daughter named Emma.
• The time Brittany spotted the ad for "Daily Find: Ian" on a website. The website was a news site for a Seattle newspaper.
• We both got the same score on an online IQ test, as well as getting the same questions wrong with the same wrong answers.
• Emerald is the birthstone for Ian and the nickname for Seattle is the "Emerald City".
• We both happened to be under the weather and unable to go out on New Years Night and were forced to spend it alone together.
• Received a zebra mask from my aunt for my birthday after all of our "zebraloudsounds" joking.
• Both of us loved our very first open conversation so much that we saved it in Notepad.
• The type of watch that Brittany wanted for a very long time is from Fossil and the model is "Emma".
• Both of us both randomly were overcome by lightheadedness out of nowhere
• We both happened to bite our tongues rather badly on the same day in the exact same spot
• We both loved to watch Ghostwriter as kids.. well me being moreso of a kid since Brittany is SO old =P

Piece Of My Heart

It's one of those days where I have a ton of stuff to do but I don't feel like doing any of it.  Good stuff huh? 

Past My Bedtime

I can't sleep.  So much on my mind.  It's one of those times where my mind bounces from one thought to another and back again.  I must seem to jump from one mood to the next in my posts.  Just when I think that things are calm... and life is just floating along... something comes along to bump me and remind me that it's not always so easy.  Don't get me wrong... my life is still the best it's ever been.  I am falling in love with someone.  Can't live without, don't want to live without, head over heels, would give anything for, maddening, filling my heart until it's about to burst love.  I should probably say I have fallen in love with someone.  As a girl at work told me... I'm just gone. 

It is so scary when you open yourself up to a person.  You risk losing everything.  Losing your trust in other people, losing your dignity, and having your deepest thoughts and feelings used against you.  It can be exciting... but still scary.  I want it all.  I want to be happy.  I want to make someone happy and be what he needs.  Hopefully everything he needs, if not a good portion.  Giving yourself over to someone is never simple.  You basically put your heart in their hands and give up the right to complain because you did it willing.  Awhile ago, when I was actually falling, one night my chest felt like it was on fire.  I couldn't think or breathe and I didn't want to.  It was the best feeling.  Floating and drowning at the same time. 

I have this massive headache that I can't seem to shake.  My head feels heavy but I am wide awake.  I am currently listening to someone sleep.  It is the most soothing sound in the world.  Comforting I think.  Maybe I will try to lay down. 

Cult Of The Child

At my work I have monthly meetings with women that are in my same position.  These women are typically, older with children.  Before I came on board, they met and picked a book to read together (insert my rolling eyes here).  This initiative was directed by one particular woman.  This woman is older than the rest I believe but she is going to college to get her masters in Psychology.  To me... it's situation where pieces of education have mushed together and formed this person into something that treats her professor's word as the gospel. The book they picked was "The Purpose of Your Life"  by some woman.  Basically in a nutshell... the woman in the book is a mother of 3(?) that is "searching for herself".  In her search she feels the need to move her kids 3 times in 8 months.  In my opinion.. if you choose to have kids then there is your purpose.  I think the problem with the woman who is driving the book reading issue at my work is... she is from a different generation than me.  I am currently living my life... and finding out what I want and don't want... She came from a generation where they had kids young and now feel the need to live their life.  Anyway, I disagree with the whole soul searching... needing a purpose... middle life crisis bullshit.  If you choose to have kids they are your purpose.  Your life should be your husband and your kids.  Maybe I am just strange but this is how I feel. 

Then I read this article - The Joy of Motherhood: Reality or Myth? 

It talks about "The Unwritten Rule Against Saying Anything Negative About Parenting".  Now... I will start by saying... I don't have kids.  Everyone who reads this knows I don't have kids.  So really... my opinion is probably skewed... BUT... the author of an article entitled "Sorry, But My Children Bore Me to Death" says that she is completely bored with raising her two sons.  Honestly, how can raising children be boring?  You have two little creatures that are completely dependant on you.  Maybe it can be monotonous at times... but you would think that going into a marriage and preparing to have kids... you would know ahead of time the good and bad.  My personal view is that *if* you choose to have kids (which nowadays girls have more choices than just marriage and babies...) but if you choose... you sign away your rights to complain that your children bore you.  It is this narcissistic, selfish attitude that disgusts me about some mothers.  And again... maybe it all goes back to the fact that I am of a different generation.  I am busy figuring myself out now... so that in a few years (well.. maybe before I'm 30....?) I will be prepared enough to give up the freedom and care for my little creatures. 

An example of why kids are awesome - The Landlord: The Outtakes

Last Day Of Class...!

Oh thank god... I made it to the end of my Biological Anthropology class... hopefully with flying colors. While I only need a 55 to pass the class with an A... I still needed to study a bit... genetic variation and all that jazz.

Anyway! Today is my normal busy Tuesday. I have to get back to my notes... I'll be more exciting tomorrow.

I Dislike NBC

Tease... tease... tease...

Bee Movie

Cute.

Slow But Persistent

Alright last one... I'll be back tomorrow with less filler.

It's Only May

I am currently chanting "It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... ".   Why?  I don't know.  I feel like I am rushing through the next few months and I need to just breathe.  I have all the time in the world to get ready for the fall.  I have to endure the next few warm months.  It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May... It is only May...

Looking Forward

I am enjoying my life right now.  Whenever the weather takes a turn to drastically warmer... my moods usually turn south.  I get really down, easily irritated, and basically turn into someone that isn't that great to be around.   But so far... this hasn't been the case.  I am looking forward to the fall as usual but even more so now that I have some events planned out.  A Disneyland trip on Labor Day... my beloved Seattle trip for my birthday in October... maybe even some plans for New Years... *insert evil planning face here*

The best thing is... usually I am planning for something in the front when the present isn't so great... but honestly... I love how things are right now... I am just floating along and things are good.  The future will be good too. 

Whistle While We Work

What if Prince Charming had never showed up?  Would Snow White have slept in that glass coffin forever?  Or would she have eventually woken up, spit out the apple, gotten a job, a health-care package, and a baby from her local neighborhood sperm bank?  I couldn't help but wonder; inside every confident, driven single woman, is there a delicate, fragile princess just waiting to be saved?

Home And Stuff...

I'm sick.......

Still Sick But I Can Laugh

That I Would Be Good

It's Monday - oh, Hum.  My team is very busy.  My boss is going to be traveling all over the world in the next few months.  GREAT!!! ><  Today was very strange... I ran into 5 different people that I either worked with or went to school with in the past.  Kind of weird. 

You know what I love?  When you question yourself and the answers you come up with are really good in your own eyes...

Frack Me - A Musical Post

It's Friday, payday and I don't have to study that much this weekend.  All in all it's a good day.  Tonight should be good... new episode of The Office is out... and I don't have much to do.. which is very nice.  I am being bad and skipping out on a meeting.... shhh... don't tell anyone!  I just REALLY don't want to go... it's a bunch of woman who are all "yay us" and it drives me crazy.  Something I don't need and/or want on a Friday. 

Anyway... anyone who doesn't love the Bee Gees can stop reading this right now and never come back.

I found this when I was looking for the video above.  It's a mix of the once semi-attractive (yeah shut up.) Brittany Spears, Shakira and the Bee Gees.  Whatever.  I like it.

And lastly... Bullets For My Valentine... a song I thought was new... is actually really old.  Me ftl.

Cute Heels Always Give Blisters

It's a sacrifice I am willing to make.

Today was quiet.  A little on the boring side.  I am used to being rushed and having an overload of stuff to do.  But with my boss out... and emails needing his approval just sitting in his inbox... I am pretty bored.  Plus, Kelly canceled sushi tonight... so blah. 

So, I have a new favorite TV Show... --> Weeds  It is surprisingly good. 

Tomorrow I will be back with a non-boring post.  Hey Look -- It's hammy!

108

Out of a possible 109 points on my exam... I only missed one.  Yeah, that's right.  I rule.  Oh, and get this... I have to basically fail the next exam to get an A in the class.  How awesome is that?

Anyway, my exam grade just made my week... so I'm good.  I just got some massive praise from a person that is in the same type of position I am in... but a step higher than me.  She leads my position's group... that doesn't make much sense... but either way... her opinion matters. 

Willie Nelson, Johnny Cash, Waylon Jennings and Kris Kristofferson... doesn't get any better than this.

Remaining Calm

I am just tired.  And I think I am getting sick. 

Meeting didn't go well this morning.  I have class tonight.  Watch the video below to see how much of a chick I am.